Leaving for the missions field at the time that I did, was something I had to completely give to the Lord. The US was/is the middle of a pandemic, there was a messy transition of power as a new president was stepping into office, and injustices were heightened, seeming to occur almost daily.
Before leaving, I was already extremely passionate about the violence, racial injustice, hurt at the borders, and the way people fail to see others in the image of our father; yet, I was blinded by the lack of hope I had. It felt like a lost cause and as unfortunate as this is, my thought was “I can’t wait to get out of this country and escape it all.” Little did I know, the exact opposite would happen and my passion for the states would grow.
Since being abroad, the Lord has been calling me to fight for the people in America the same way I am doing here. Whether it is the women trapped in the sex industry, the people who are starving in search of food, the people running to escape the situation in their indigenous countries, the abuse children endure, the way families are broken apart by adultery and addiction, or SO MUCH MORE. These same things are occurring in the US. The same God who is moving and is bringing freedom to people in Panama, Costa Rica, and all over the world is bringing healing and freedom to the people in the US too.
My team and I have been stepping into intercession and interceding for the 10/40 window. One night during intercession, I remember just crying out to the Lord and asking Him to break my heart for what breaks His. This is a common phrase heard in the Christian community & especially on the race, but I’ve come to find out that it’s a much harder prayer to pray than one might think.
We watched a documentary as a team called “Free Burma Rangers”. It’s about a missionary family who moved to Myanmar (previously known as Burma) & they work to fight against the government to bring justice and reconciliation.
*If you’ve made it this far in my blog, please take a moment to research what is going on in Myanmar now and stop and pray for the country. Pray for protection and that the Lord’s peace and freedom would cover that country. I am praying Psalm 91 over Myanmar and that the Lord would cover them in His wings and that His presence would dwell in that space. Pray that the fruit that comes with His presence would be over Myanmar and felt by the people there.*
While I watched this documentary, my heart absolutely broke for the injustice occurring in Myanmar. I have seen things about the genocide occurring there now, but have chosen to shift my focus and try to not look at it because it is easier to ignore than to sit in a place of broken heartedness for people.
But, that’s not what the Lord calls us to do. His character is one of justice and righteousness. He calls us to invite Him into those spaces of broken heartedness & to walk in the authority that His spirit gives us to make a difference.
The Lord put it on my heart at our training camp that I needed to keep up with the current events in the US so that I could allow my heart to break for it and that my broken heartedness would fuel change. I’ve learned that by sitting in places of brokenness, the Lord meets us in that space and brings passion and hope.
Even though I always thought the Lord would call me to do international missions full time, I am realizing that this desire was because of the little faith I had that the Lord could bring redemption to the US. I am not sure what this will look like in the future, but I know that when I get home I am going to be praying for opportunities to get involved in bringing Kingdom down in America and in being a voice to the voiceless.
How cool is it that the Lord can literally MOVE FREAKING MOUNTAINS with faith so small and even with a lack of knowledge about the future. I have seen Him do it before and I have seen His presence shift atmospheres here. I know that if He can do it once, He can do it again in places that seem so far gone. While so much of me wants to ask Him for the full picture, all I know now is the next step which is fighting for reform in the US and bringing freedom there.
Friends, please look around at the injustice in the world. Stop turning a blind eye, I know it seems easier but the Lord’s heart is breaking. Allow yourself to sit in that space and let your heart break for the things that breaks His. Seek Him in that space & He will reveal passions and areas where you are fit to make a difference.
—- Where is your blind eye holding you back from making a difference?
Oh! How He leads out to bring back!!! Over and over in Scripture and in us! To tell of what has been seen and learned from His Hand! He is the Ratifier of Eternal Covenants, Reconciler of Amazing connections, Orderer of Steps!! Love you so much!!
Break our hearts for what break yours ???? Only leads you to good places sweet girl ! Not good as in what the world thinks as good but real life good. Good as in redemption. Good as in knowing He is real and alive today xoxooxox
???????? Powerful prayer!!! Break my heart for what breaks yours! How good is He in these last couple months to bring such clarity to your next steps! You’re right – those spaces can be uncomfortable and overwhelming but to sit in them and be still….we can hear His whisper. Love and miss you! Thank you for the challenge ????
We are so proud of what you are doing and the plans you are making!! We will continue to pray for you and your team as you finish your race and for you as you transition back to the US! It was such a joy and honor to spend time with you and your squad and we loved the time we were with you while you lead worship! You have a gift there so we encourage you to continue to grow there!!!